Hello Readers, welcome back ! This week’s blog is a bit of a long one . I just want to encourage someone reading this who has been feeling like they are behind you are not you are right where you need to be. If you feel like you are not doing enough just look back and see how far you have come. You are certainly not where you used to be and you are on the way to who you are becoming so just sit, relax and calm your nervous system. You are doing great.
In my last blog post I spoke about the different seasons that we go through in life heartbreak, pain, grief, healing, becoming, preparation and transition. No season is easy, it all comes with its own weight of making the right choices and moving forward. I am going to speak a little about each of the seasons that I have overcome. I say overcome because I know that I am not where I used to be and I thank God for pulling me through.
My season of heartbreak, grief and pain was something I thought I’d never have to go through. I went through a Miscarriage. At the time that pain and grief was the only thing that flooded my thoughts when I woke in the morning and when I laid my head to rest at night. It was like a bad dream I couldn’t see myself waking up from. It almost consumed me. I remember asking God why, and he answered by saying if I had not gone through this pain and grief now I wouldn’t be able to handle what he had for me in the future. So i thought to myself would i go through more pain but that was not what he meant. As a result of that awful experience he used my pain and suffering for his glory. Looking back now I understand that I was being pruned by Long Suffering.
Long Suffering is the fruit of the spirit, one that a lot of us don’t particularly like but it is essential in every believer’s life. It teaches us endurance and patience. Enduring the things that life throws our way is how God teaches and tests us. My season of pain and grief taught me dependence on God. I had no other option but to call out to him through every thought that came to mind and every burden that laid heavy on my heart. I don’t wish the grief and pain that i had been through on anyone but one thing i will say is that it shaped me into the woman i am now and i can say that there was light in that season when everything seemed so dark. Jesus was my light.
Through that season of grief and pain came Healing and Becoming. When God does the work in you he really goes in! He tackles the root before he gets to the fruit. I still had some unforgiveness that I didn’t know I was holding on to until I had given God my Yes and surrendered everything to him. By healing me he began to expose wounds I had covered up. I have been hurt by different people in my life, close family, close friends and some acquaintances. I am not perfect myself but I also know the kind of heart that God gave me. A soft heart. So I believe that God cared about my heart too much to not allow the wounds grow deeper and get the proper care that it deserved. My heart needed to forgive the betrayals, accusations and hurts and by the end of it I had a heart of repentance. It wasn’t easy getting to that point, from then on I knew it was the beginning of my becoming.
The becoming season comes with a lot of preparation and transition.The bible says that in Christ you become a new creation, the old has passed away and you are new. ( 2 Corinthians 5:17) I certainly felt like I was on the crossroads of becoming this new person. A lot of things were happening, not only was I going through postpartum I also was going through changes in friendships, family dynamics, my career and my mental health . I felt as though God was stripping and refining me. He touched the parts of my life that couldn’t hold the weight of my new becoming. It wasn’t something that I expected or wanted but what deemed fit for his will. The transition season came with a lot of prayer and warfare. Testing my strength and endurance and remembering whom I belong to. That helped me overcome a lot.
I share this part of my story because I know that someone will need it some day for their own particular season, or someone has already gone through this and is on the other side. I want you to know that you are not alone. There is a community of us here rooting for you and praying for you. Like i said before not all seasons last forever they come to prune, teach and shape us for the better.
I pray that you alway find peace love and comfort 🫂
With love
Sonia
AN ECHO OF HIS VOICE 